New Car Blues

Yes, you read that right, NEW car blues.

So I got a new car, bought from my grandmother.  It's a bmw 328i, which is rear wheel drive.  But when I spoke to my grandmother she told me it was x drive which is all wheel drive.  But speaking to a coworker today he said to me "I thought you got x drive on the car", I said I did, but he goes "but there is no 'x' on the back of the car with the letters, blah, blah, blah.  That put me in a bad mood because I could have sworn that the car had the x drive, otherwise I would not have gotten the car.  So I went crazy all day until I got home and looked at the paper work, which says 328xi, so now I'm confused.  I will have to call the dealership and double check.

But even before all this drama, I've been having the nagging gut feeling that something isn't right.  But I chalked it up to new car jitters.  So I went on a road trip this weekend to visit college friends in PA and I did not enjoy the drive at all.  Not because the car was uncomfortable, I really can't put my finger on it, but I was just didn't enjoy it.  I actually don't getting in the car anymore.  Before the road trip I was OK, it was fun to show all my friends and I was playing around with the features of the car.  But after the road trip, I'm having a hard time finding my groove.  I am constantly playing with the seat adjustments.  I can't see if any cars are coming when backing out of a parking spot and I just can't see anything.

I realize that I've gone from apples to oranges with my old car, Jeep Liberty, to new car, bmw.  But I am thinking about my old constantly.  I trained it in at the dealership and am thinking, if I don't cash the check, can I get my car back.  I feel very overwhelmed in the new car, so many gadgets that I have to read the car manual to figure out.  I want the features of a car to be self explanatory.

So am I really crazy or just have new car jitters??? I am having a really, really hard time adjusting.  And I know it's only been two weeks.  Do I need to give myself a timeline before I make a decision.  As another coworker I spoke to said, "I feel like a goober."  I feel so stupid for having these feelings because I've been raving about this car for months and have been so, so, so excited about getting it.  And now that I have it, I'm like "eh, whatever."  I feel like I want a more practical car with basic features.

I can now see what people stick with a certain car model year after year after year, getting used to this new SUCKS!!!  And because this situation is not going right, I feel like nothing in my life is going right.  Isn't that always the case.