My New Best Friend

Friday afternoon I went to visit a woman's house who founded and fosters dogs from other the NY Abandoned Angles organization.  I had seen a few dogs on the website that I was interested in and asked to see.  One of the dogs I wanted to see was not available but another cute cuddly dog was there for me to meet.  He's a miniature poodle named Beach Baby.  He was just full of hugs and kisses, just adorable.  Also there was a beautiful Cocker Spaniel named Rusty.  He had just a gorgeous coat, but unfortunately he needed medication that I was not comfortable with, so Beach Baby it was.  And I am so glad I made that decision, he is just a PERFECT match for me.

So he was transported to my place this afternoon and we've been having a blast ever since.  Actually we've done nothing, lol.  Just getting settled I guess. Taking walks, playing with toys, taking naps, and watching TV on the couch.  I have no idea what I'm doing!  I don't know if should be entertaining him or doing something with him.  (And a really selfish part of me is kinda bummed being stuck in the house, I really hate saying that). Trying to get a routine going, but that may not become definite because it is the weekend which will be different from weekday routines.

OK, here comes the weird part.  I am overcome with this very strange emotion.  The only way I can describe it is... the way I felt when my Ex left me.  And I have no idea why I am feeling like this.  I should be happy and excited, but I feel this horrible sadness and strange emotion I never thought I would feel again.  Why am I feeling like this???  Maybe it's because I was home all last weekend and will probably be home all this weekend too, not going out.  So maybe I'm feeling lonely, but I shouldn't because I have my new companion. I know it won't be like this forever and eventually I will be able to leave my dog home if I want to go out to the bar, but I guess I'm panicking right now that I'll never be able to leave the house again.  And I could easily invite friends over.

I am very happy and know I've made the right decision.  But this crappy emotion really sucks!!!  Any help or advice?

I'm sure I will be posting more about questions or advice I will need.  When I had my first dog I was a young teen so I really didn't know what was going on.  Now it's all me!  Eek! LOL  :)